27.

I’ve got ink stained fingers that
I never trained to hold a cigarette
I’ve learned that I’m happiest
when I have my bad ideas
and a universe of plans

I found it hard to be the subject
of care and of poetry, of attention
we all cope privately, excessively
I took my pills and my books with me
and I learnt that it wasn’t so easy

Violence infected my life from birth
and I found it harder to be a daughter
a friend, a lover, or a sister
but it doesn’t matter what is hard
for me, for the addict or the ‘writer’
give me plans and sanctuary, but
please don’t show care for me

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